Another main reason I don't on facebook ?

Another main reason I don't on facebook is that I don't found that facebook warm me .
Friends are like ignoring my appearance .
Online also no one find me , I just curious Am I living on the bright side ?
Should I still be alive , I wish a lot then others My day of death is now , this second .
But yet , there's a force someone pulled me with a string .
I can't die so easily ..

I should share with who ?

Should I share with you ?
Should I trust you ?
I'm hearted . After that , I never trust anyone to share to .
Just fooling with them but never tell them how I feel .
Because I scare they're not trustable .
You always say I should trust you , You treat me well but why I just feel like my door is closed , not open anymore .
Is that my heart can only open from her key's ? My best friend , Ashley Chua Wan Lee ?
She've block both my account at facebook , That's one of the main reason why I make a new one . But I won't add her ANYMORE ! She's so hurted . She know anything about me , she always cheer me up . Why she's so successful ? Did I just trust her so much ?
I didn't share with others or you because I scare one day you will treat me like what she treat me . I just post a sentence on facebook just to show I care her . Yet , That's sentence on facebook has become a scarf on my heart which cannot be cure and rubbed . Although , How much I take you as my sis . But yet, I still heart closed .
Who may open my heart ? Who may let me fully trust ? Is it you , ek.ching ? Or not . I'm so sorry to you =(

Am I all Alone ?

Am I all Alone ? Is that without me , activities still goes right ?
This is what you gave me . Yesterday , we're teaching form 1 marching and yet I don't have team to teach . Am I too nag or what ?
I've change not to be so small gas and not a person to play to .
Yet , Is it that my impression when form 2 gives you a bad image that I'm not a perfect person for you to choose me ? Then , Why should I still so active at st.john ?
WHY ? My friends tell me don't need to be active anymore but yet I don't .
Is that , what you wish me to disappear from st.john and write lot's of formal letters and pass to THE OFFICER'S ?

homework

Homework is driving me crazy , It drive til the top of my head .
I'm getting to collapse soon .
Please , don't let me get headache with homework .
I've got so many activities to attend yet still this and that .
It's still okay but yet still scold us for not doing homework .
I'll go mad and man in black .
I'm just don't understand , I don't have much homework why I say til all the fault is on the teacher .
I'm so sorry My dear teacher , I didn't mean it . I'm so sorry .. =(
It's my fault which I can't and didn't arrange my time properly .

this sat

This sat is St.john 39th anniversary .
We're not in a good condition .
Hope everything goes right . No rain or accident happen .
Well , this year we make it simple . No marching and 1st aid performance .
Firstly , our marching is so bad and 1st aid not well done yet .
By the way , We just have 33 people for masuk barisan to invite Our Yang berhormat Dato seri ang lai soon to our school .
It's very simple and yet We're doing nothing . Most of the time .
Just sit and stand there . Well , what we will be going to do is that , form 4 including me is going to get our ranking from him . And read the code of chivary .
Sound funny huh ? Yes , It is foolish . The principal may not attend to , but please don't look down on St.John . The school didn't even provide us anything , All the duties , the equipment we have to go buy ourselves . No support from school . ==
From my brother's year to now , we're still not look up by the school . Said we are not professional in helping . Damn , We're pro . Just you never even take an eye on a stone . School , I'm going to leave soon . 2 more years to go , now I just left 1 year and a half month time .

Perfect duty's

I have perfect duty's this morning .
7-12 . It's so tiring and so meaningless .
What's the use of coming ? I'm tired and busy .
This is the worse perfect duty I ever had .
This year perfect committee , the form 4 are like a piece of shit .
They don't help us , just do their meeting . Only done some this morning .
After that , We do everything . Yet , they have their own meeting for so long .
What's so many to talk about ?
Fxxx . Luckily , I'm not choosen to be one of the committee .

Usher - Moving Mountains

Usher - Moving Mountains


Now, now she loved me, shawty I loved her.
Used to jump up in the Maybach and roll out.
Used to care, she used to share...
The love that she used to give me can£§t be found.
I lost my way, she said she£§d stay.
And lately I£§ve been sleeping with a ghost!
My stock is down and out,
I used to be worth my weight in gold.
That was before the great depression kicked in and rocked us.
And that was before the hurricane, came in and stopped us.
I told you to leave, but you lied to me...
When you said that, baby no worries I promise to get us back.

I know sorries, just wouldn£§t do it.
Her heart is obliterated, I£§m tryna£§ travel through,
But it£§s like moving mountains...
It£§s like moving mountains... hey.
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change...
And the sky turns grey,
and the water from the rain washes progress away.
It£§s like moving mountains...
It£§s like moving mountains...

Why you just leave me?
Just leave me be...
Just leave me, just leave me be...
Why you just leave me?
Just leave me be...
Why you just leave me?
Just leave me be... oh!

She, she don£§t touch me, I don£§t touch her.
We ain£§t really never say a word.
I really want to give her everything she deserves.
But the bad take away the good...
She thinks that I£§m full of it...
arguments, always pissed, man I£§m tired...
Every kiss, that I missed, girl you know I£§m trying!
You never believe when I say,
and I never believe it when you say...
I love you, and I shouldn£§t complain about it,
I should take it like a man and walk up out it.
Cause we will never be the same oh!
I£§ve been standing in gas, and you have been the flames

I know sorries, just wouldn£§t do it.
Her heart is obliterated, I£§m tryna£§ travel through,
But it£§s like moving mountains...
It£§s like moving mountains... hey.
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change...
And the sky turns grey,
and the water from the rain washes progress away.
It£§s like moving mountains...
It£§s like moving mountains...

Well baby why you just leave me?
Just leave me be, just leave me...
Just leave me be...
Why you just leave me?
Just leave me be...
Why you just leave me?
Just leave me be... oh!


I know sorries, just wouldn£§t do it.
Her heart is obliterated, I£§m tryna£§ travel through,
But it£§s like moving mountains...
It£§s like moving mountains... hey.
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change...
And the sky turns grey,
and the water from the rain washes progress away.
It£§s like moving mountains...
It£§s like moving mountains...

Why you just leave me?
Just leave me be...
Just leave me, just leave me be...
Why you just leave me?
Just leave me be...
Why you just leave me?
Just leave me be... oh!

something to tell you

Sis , now I have more time to spend on blog .
More spacious time to update my blog and I miss you .
Although we may not often Message each others .
It doesn't mean We are like strangers to each others yet we treat each others well .
Thanks , Ek.Ching For being my sis . The most cute sis I ever had .
Thanks a lot . If it isn't you , I may still keep myself alone at the corner .
If It isn't you , I may not have this blog and have so much things to share although it's private , not open to all people to come to see .
Since I had this blog until now . Only you and me know about it , Now a new comer - your friend .
It's alright . You're precious to me .
You may not look good , may not be prefect as anyone around the world .
According to me , You're a rainbow . A rainbow which brighten my life . Although At window live messenger , We always lost topic to chat about . Putting each others cold but yet We still can being so good to each others .
Here , I end my blog . More post will coming out soon . =) , see you ~

dicision

This is my decision .
As you know , I've told you I will quit Facebook .
I did it , I deactivate both account which they are : Thomas Chong and Thomas Lacer
I do quit too from the website www.quitfacebookday.com .
By the way , I hope I won't regret what I decision I make .
Although I felt sad , To quit it . I will miss my friends .
I don't ask for anything back from others .
But I will do whatever I can for them .
Just , I felt lonely and not much friends are chatting with me .
I felt like doing something stupid and non-sense .
I'm so sorry , sis . =(

this is for you

Special , this is for you lee Ek.Ching .
Orianthi - According To You

According to you
I£§m stupid,
I£§m useless,
I can£§t do anything right.
According to you
I£§m difficult,
Hard to please,
Forever changing my mind.
I£§m a mess in a dress,
Can£§t show up on time,
Even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.
But according to him
I£§m beautiful,
Incredible,
He can£§t get me out of his head.
According to him
I£§m funny,
Irresistible,
Everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don£§t feel like stopping it,
So baby tell me what I got to lose.
He£§s into me for everything I£§m not
According to you.
According to you
I£§m boring,
I£§m moody,
You can£§t take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I£§m the girl with the worst attention span;
You£§re the boy who puts up with it.
According to you. According to you.
But according to him
I£§m beautiful,
Incredible,
He can£§t get me out of his head.
According to him
I£§m funny,
Irresistible,
Everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don£§t feel like stopping it,
So baby tell me what I got to lose.
He£§s into me for everything I£§m not,
According to you.
I need to feel appreciated,
Like I£§m not hated. oh no
Why can£§t you see me through his eyes?
It£§s too bad you£§re making me dizz-ay

But According to me
You£§re stupid,
You£§re useless,
You can£§t do anything right.
But according to him
I£§m beautiful,
Incredible,
He can£§t get me out of his head.
According to him
I£§m funny,
Irresistible,
Everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don£§t feel like stopping it,
Baby tell me what I got to lose.
He£§s into me for everything I£§m not,
According to you. you, you
According to you. you, you
According to you
I£§m stupid,
I£§m useless,
I can£§t do anything right