small small

Do you guys ever heard of the song "big big world" ?
Here's some of the part to recall your memory . Listen :
I'm a big big girl in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you need me
And I do do feel And I do do know miss you much miss you much
Lately , Just now I shout out very loud in my deep heart core with a very loud voice Imagine I'm standing on the tallest mountain ever . What may first goes to your mind ? Am I crazy ?
I guess I am . I don't need to stand on Mountain Everest or Mountain Kinabalu . It doesn't mean tallest mountain must be both of them . It could be the shortest mountain with the best view of all .
I use my left hand touched on my left chest . I'm not pervert . I'm just listening to my heart beat myself .
I know myself better than anyone . I'm just trying to be positive minded .
I'm trying to stand out for a pride . For my own survive . I don't want to be abandon .

Actually last time , I didn't follow Committee to go to eat together is because I don't have so much money to go with them . It isn't that I want to abandon them . But I guess they never think of it .
So I just let it go . If I really love someone , I don't need to chase someone .
I don't need someone to be mine because I know There is a better person outside suit for her .
I will find my own partner . I don't want to hurt every people beside me . I just need to cool down for awhile these days . I feel like my soul Isn't with me this afternoon . At night , doesn't sleep so well . Like I'm getting haunted by ghost . Hopefully , It isn't . I'm having here and there mosquito bite . Luckily , I didn't get Denggi fever . I give up on the competition tomorrow . Reason is very simply , I don't want to take a challenge .

Actually , I have been thinking for so long . I should give a helping hand to some of my friends . To forgive someone mistake and forget someone mistake . My aunt told me this , but yet I forget . Now I should Never forget and forgive . I will try my best to do so . Even If I'm a Buddhist . I don't need to behave like a Buddhist . No one can force a person to do what they want to , even is religion . We should never surrender to fate .