I don't know but I just want to find it out

Living on this earth , What I wish is to find a friend that I can say and talk to and share .
There's a quote sound like this "Sharing is caring and caring is showing a love"
I just don't get it what wrong did I do to you ? You know how much brave I need to gain to see you two girls .
Can just don't block me . I ask for nothing much . I just don't want to have any one hate me or I hate anyone .
I know blocking isn't as worse as an anti-page but I just want to get off this guilt .
What you two give me is a guilt of don't know what wrong have been done and have to be a very bad image to you two . Think that I'm annoying and don't talk to me . Past is past , It can't be change . If It's bad it's going to be a injuries in my always . I don't know why I want to mind it so much . I guess you two are too important to me that's why I always don't have the chance to put it down .
But I will be happy . I will . You two know very well who you guys are .
But I don't mind . I will be happy .

Christmas is just around the corner , I just wanna be happy with people around me .
I don't want to be their mouth saying I'm emo I'm sad . I also have the time I'm happy so I should be happy .